well today i ddi sumthing...after sch i went straight to the old interchange wch i asked ard n found out tat they sold cheaper down ther..ther were couple of shops..all teh prices were below 350+...wch i had asked from my father as my next semester fees...i felt liek a crook...but i had no choice:(..i hated myself when i had it..i told myself i wld earn it back no choice..i ad to juz think on the positive side n tel myself tat tis is one of the many lessons tat i had to learn from..i have to say this made a reali big impact on me...i wld neva borrow or ask for his things anymore..i guess tis is my punishment for sort of manipulating him to give me his phoen 4 3 weeks...tat makes me hate myself even more...
the salesgal gave me a final price of 340 for the phoen wth warranty..she showed me 2nd phoen wch was cheaper..but i told myself..is it fair for him to have a 2nd hand phoen..when he left it in my hands>>it was onli 2 days??my heart said no so i bought the new one..after tat i cld feel my heart feel lighter than usual but not completely light..a part of the burden has been lifted i told myself as i left the place to take the 911 bus home..sum stupid malaysian guys were giving sum comments as i walked pass but i cldnt be bothered..ther were other things runnign thru my head like..i need to collect my sim card on fri...then shld i tell him..wld he noe..he had to noe..i wld feel guilty if i dunt tell him...i told myselfl i had to juz tel him..he wldnt be happy at all but at least i dun wan him to feel sad when he comes back espesiali..i juz dun wan to be the course to ruin his mood when he's back expectign to see us all happilly...i hate tat...
i hope he wld forgive me...i miss him soo much..i have juz realised how much i love him as well...
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