duno wats up wth all this bitches...eseciali teh one jzu tagged my box...its so damn irritating..
i mean obviosuly din do anythign to them..duno y they so jealous tsk tsk...but hey its cewl in a way coz..how many pple think u look lik a goddess n r jealous of tat fact....obviously they r jealous of me rite lol..tat means its gd rite....well i'm jzu gona see it postively..whueva teh bitch is...sorri try harder to bring me down...

well...life has its way after all...
i've lost to it..the race against it...
i'm human after all..n i decided to lie low..
sumtimes how hard u try doesnt matter..
coz u the things u do r not appreciated..
i did my part n i did all i cld..but then its not enuff is it?
i tot i cld melt the coldness away...
but i was lost in the attempt...it onli got colder
i dunt noe if it wld eva melt..again..da dayz when the heart was warm is over..
tell myself is over n over...yet thers tis taunting in my heart tat juz never leaves..
is juz the affection tat wld never go..away..never...i'll always hav a tot a sec a day..for tis person
but i hav decided not to do anyhtign abt it now..
till the person gives me a sign..
i'm not wishing or lookgin forward..juz waiting to see teh the next turn of path .
of my fate...onli time will tell...

its reali crasi like a veri veri bad dream...
my worst fears were coming true
i dunno how i managed to survive thru..
n i duno wats the test fer
rite now i duno when it will crumble again
its crumbling juz crumbling
i'm so lost...
i noe i muz get a hold on myself
i duno wch the rite way
wch is gd fer me...wch is not
cant get a grip on my life
its running on its own..leading its way
or am i responsible fer it?
i dunno....
everythings amazingly a maze
a big wild maze in a web
n i'm caught in the web
can i eva break free?
will i eva break free?

life is reali not wat we chose to lead...it always wants to be the leader...so i learnt tat neva to let myself run life...the way i wanted...so many unexpected turn of events..has changed me..moulded me...into a new me...da child in me has disapeared...i tot i'll neva be able to see the light again...but now i might too...in tis cruel world...u're all alone..no dependence...will onli lead to disapointments...oh wat a lesson u've tot me god...u onli wan ur children to lov u...materialistic luv n bonds neva last...i'm forced to lead life tis way...but y muz i learn it such a hard way?da word happiness doesn mean anythign to me....its juz an empty werd reali...i still hav my frens...but will i eva hav the luv i crave...constant attention...show me a way out...betrayal has strung me out so many times...wat i reali belive is not wat it is...under every cover thers a selfishness tat i cant stand...nuthing is selfless is ther...wat a world to live in...its full of misery...but then life as to go on....i've learned wat i can frm tis...i'm not happy n neva will...in tis world of pretentence i'll act as though...till then its reali a big ?

Reminisez

The sight of u never failed to
make my heart skip a beat
we were da bez couple totali in lov
i wasnt scared of losing u eva
but look wat became of us now
but alas i was proved otherwise
shockness n grieve overwhelm my mind
the pain of you not here
has got me in dismay
the world which I loved
has gone gone away...
i'll miss the nights which u held me tight
the times where you did nothing
and made me smile
I wish I could turn back time
n erase the wrong and make it right
you were the one I could see myself with
now you say you don't feel the way you used to
guess you just expect me to except my defeat and lose
Well I don't even know what i'm suppose to do
why would you want me to choose..
i'm so confused
the situation is impossible..
I can't tell my heart to stop loving you
it's just not possible
it's non-stop it keeps yearning
For the one it needs...
The one it can't seem to leave

The Bridge Leaders' Camp yes...it was fun!! on the overall.. i was feelign sulky being away from teh comfort of my home though..nuthign is better than my bed n my pink comforter hehe...well Fahd brought her stuff on Fri so seh was staying at sch til 3.30pm..i n Nurul went back home..tat nurul was sooo lucky to hav her dad fetch her!!grr...i had to carry my baggy all teh way!arrived on time n since beign a bridge leader is abt having fun..we started the camp wth a lame game actuali..i had a big question mark on my face...we were quite blur..n fahd n nurul n i were hoping to be together but all hopes were down when we went to the Games Area to start our Telematch..man they were grping us wth pple i neva knew..not even one!so i was announcing to every tat they can call me pepsi or Sarsi as logn as they can remember me...there was 2 guys in every 7 grp...at first i tot my team was dull..coz nobody was willign to introduce except myself!!they were all feelign shy n all..the usual stuff..but ther was tis gal michele she was reali frendly n seh was stickign to me..n we made teh Junior guy Sean teh Leader lol..the telematch was fun..i got the part where i had to dig out fer sweets in the florr!..it was a disaster but i juz happen be tehr!!ther were 2 other wth me n i was teh first to find the sweet(man it was DELICIOUS)lol..Nurul was doign teh same too..she was in Grp 3,fahd was in Grp 5 n i 3...we managed to collect 10 bags of water wthout breakign them..so we got in 2nd..then we proceeded to the Roof Garden to have our Dinner Buffet..we had plain fried rice,BBQ Chicken,Nuggets,Samosa,Pizza,n Fish Fingers...Hmmm i enjoyed Pigging out...hehe..after tat we went back to the audidorium n had to get ready fer teh Night Tour...it kinda reminded me of Sec sch wher we had to be blindfolded n be in a line..i actuali cld see a bit coz my nose is so sharp as u all noe..hehe so when we went to the field i was like wat teh hell..ther were mosquitos n frog croakign everywher..n it was soo wet..to make things worse the Committee Members were tryign to be funny by throwing leaves n tickling us wth it everyway it felt reali slimy...n i saw JueMing doign it to my leg!!Actuali i Screamed at first coz i reali tot..er it was a snake or sumthing..lol..okok later i knew it already..by the time we finished we were falling on our heads..i cld have slept standing..it was 1 pm when they told us we cld finali hit the sack..after havign sum cookies i fahd nurul hit the sack..n the next thing i noe is nurul was tellign me to wake up n i cldnt belive it! n i tot i juz closed my eyes..we finali had bread fer breafst can u belive it???bread???lol i ate liek 4 or 5 cant keep track..lol..then after tat we went out to start out our own Amazing Race all over Bishan..my grp was reali excited n they ran all the way!man i gotta learn from them...i was reali impresed when my grp reali discussed n got together fer teh spider web station..it was reali cewl..i got to be spider woman whooo hoo haha..after a doing sum ecercises n passing ping pong balls in spoons..we finali reached our sch wch was our last station...n yes we were the first!!It felt sooo damn gd!!!!!!we finished it in 1 hr..the rest of the grp was not in sight fer at leat half an hour..finali it was presentation time..n of coz we won three sets straight n our grp was teh overall winer..got so many goodies n titbits..gave fahd n nurul sum..i not so selfish hehe
after tat met up wth hari n so gd he carried my heavy baggies fer me...in teh train onli..i still walked all teh way to the staion..:P

oh yes so sorry>>Nurul>Jue ming>Fahd i noe u guys gave me liek a dozen miscalls but i was too worn out!!to even go do teh Charity Hand Campaign at orchard..man it was so wasted!After all tat party the day b4 i was so hungover!well dint drink much but still my head was liek glued to the pillow n weighed a few tons..sorri guys..i'll make it up to u..but still i noe u guys did a gd job..by the time i woke up it was 2pm!lol when it was soooo over already lol....

first time going to an indian club...went ther wth my cousin..it was last min kinda thing...she juz came straight to my house n went from ther!..i shldve told hari but acctuali he told me tat i can go n juz to be careful..n when i went he dint call at all..tat day i wasnt in the mood to go at all but my sis kinda forced me into goign n well it was free afterall(yes she offered to pay fer me..hehe) so i was like y not juz go n see wats it like..we took a cab down..n her frens were already ther waiting fer us..it was 11.30pm..the first impression of the club when i entered was it had a cewl layout..bar n dancefloor..the crowd was liek ard hari's age..not all were typical indians wch surprised me..but teh songs were typical tehy played eng songs too..tepted to touch abt 5..6.. times? i dunno..i ws juz sitting ther watching everyoen dance n sippign on my bourboncoke..it was soo boring..n guess wat?tis reali shocked me ther was this Minah in teh club! n she came wth tis indian guy whu had piercings everywher...she smiled at em n i smiled back so she sat beside me..n we started toking..her name ws shikin..she said she knew abit of tamil she even had a fav song!lol..was pretty amusing..she asked me to dance wth her n so we both did n all teh looks started to come our direction but i was too busy enjoying myself...of coz the dance was diff from wat teh rez of tehm were doign..lol..after a while when we sat back she said i wasnt liek teh rez of the indan gals n asked if i was a mix...after i went to sit wth my cousin sis..its quite a spacious club...ther were pool table n band..ther was a tab on my shoulder n when i turned ard it was Anuja!!i was soo surprised!!to see her ther..i was toking to her n she said she followed her sis here as well..n she was feelign bored so we both went out of teh club n were tokgin of the gd old times...exchanged no. n promised to meet up..she said she was goign to organise a gettogether at the COSTA RESORT..cewl..n seh was dying to see Hari after i showed her teh photo of us in my wallet..she said he muz come...yay yay i'm so excited to go see tehm all wonder how shaline,shoba,mirdhula n all r...hav to tell Hema hehe

HOW DO U KNOW IF IT IS TRUE LOVE?



Ur HEART beats faster when U hear O their name.


UR body melts when U R in their arms.



They R the only G that U want 2 be with.



No G else is even worth looking at..



U would walk B miles N the ]snow just 2 C them



U will do everything N UR power to make them HaPpY



When some1 asks for Ur No#, Usay " U can (call ( my /boy/girl friend kget it from them.



When every romantic thing makes U think of them.



When U :: CrY:: when you won't C each other 4 a whil.
U go 2 zZzZzZzZzZz sleepThinking about them.



Uwake UP thinking about them



U want 2 spend every 6 moment with them



U don't mind if all they want 2 do is cuddle



Silence doesn't bother U



They R not only UR Y lover, but also Ur best friend



U can tell them anything



U can go 2 the movies k actually WATCH the movie, they R always there 4 U.



They R there when times R rough



When U say, "I LOVE YOU " N mean it.

wah so long i neva write in here huh...so many interesting things happened...but i cant reveal it here hehe...:P..i've gotton alot of comments n advice over my blog...elaine told me tat i'm paranoid! n yea i m..i mean i knew i am when i was writing all those stuff! lol..barathi called me juz now..she said she was in the airport fetchign vivekthe plane has arrived 20 mins already n still no sign of them..its 9 am n hey my phone is ringign i think its him!!!...HAHA yes it was him..he said he was on his way back home...gr8..n he'll meet me later if possible..i told him to rest first..well it;s gr8 to have him back in singapore again...sanjeev msg yesterday to ask wats been goign on i told him he's coming today n he was liek "excited rite"nice of him to check on me n everythign u're gr8 dude:)

Shalini juz called me...she wanted me to check her mails coz her com was down...we started tokgin fer while..then she said she wanted to Asoka...n tat they mostly play tamil songs ther..she asked me if i wanted to go..i said sure i dun mind if the songs r not too anjadi..she say moz of the tiem its english songs..n the crowd is older..i wanna go maily coz i neva been to a indian club b4..dunno to go now or in surign teh upcomign week holiday..cewl..but tats liek in a mths time...hope hari's clearign his leave at the saem time...

Girls love the small things...if ya hold the door for her.hold her hand,give her a kiss on the hand or cheek instead of the lips(at random times), compliment her on her looks(guys, if you Really like a girl, you know that she will AlWAYS be gorgeous to you),buy her dinner sometime and exoect nothing in return, and actuali get to know her, i promise you..she will love it,if she is the right kind of girl.

Wen a guy reali falls in love and becomes
faithful to his beloved, his change in his character
will reali shock every1 around him.. His egoist
heart will uncompromisingly softens when he
willingly gives his heart to the lady he falls in love
with.. furthermore he'll be willing to sacrifice
everythin and do anythin fer his loved one.. No
matter how egoist he may be, tears will fall from
his cheeks wen his heart's broken.. It's not easy to
see guys who would truly cry fer their loved
ones...~

20 signs to recognise the strong love a guy
holds fer his beloved..

1. he willingly do anythin n everythin fer his
beloved.. with sincerity not coercion

2. he constantly wans to humour his beloved and
tends to be more talkative

3. he tends to advise his beloved more as he
truly loves her and wans her to be a better person

4. he tries to restrict her freedom due to his
overwhelmin jealousy

5. he constantly fears losin his beloved

6. he always monitors his beloved's movements
as he feels insecure

7. he hates e idea of other guys bein close to
his beloved

8. he becomes jealous and sensitive wen his
beloved pays less attention to him

9. he becomes the most hardworking person
n help his beloved to do anythin n everythin

10. he becomes restless wen his beloved's
away fer too long

11. he cares fer his beloved more than he
does himself

12. he constantly asks if his beloved loves
him as he feels his love is greater than his
beloved's

13. he would not be bothered wif other gals
who dun hold any importance to him

14. he will try to spend a lot of time wif his
beloved even tho he noes he'll end up waitin fer
his beloved

15. he praises his beloved in front of others

16. if his beloved leaves him, he cant trust
any other gal n wishes fer his beloved to come
back to him

17. wen ther is a third party, he loses his
mind and is willing to do anythin to fight fer his
beloved

18. he makes sure he ensures her safety at
all times

19. he is lyk a small kid who fights fer
constant attention from his beloved

20. he treats his beloved as his most trusted
one
and willing to sacrifice all of his wealth and
even his life fer her


~it's not easy to find guys who would shed
their tears jus fer gals.. so pls treasure them...~

guess wat?hari called yesteraday finali! well i was sooo glad to hear his voice it juz sounds sweeter than b4...sighzz..n he aws happy to hear mine too..the conversation was gogin smoothly till it came to the part when i was supposed to go clubbign today...wth kamini n iswari..to cheekys..i cldnt belive it..he was okay wth me goign but..now he sayign tat dun go n stuff..i mean he can go n i cant issit..the reason=i'm a lady n i cant take care of myself..sighzz..well he did say i cld go n juz be careful..but now he says not to go..n i dunno y but he always asks me if i dance wth other guys..i ws like yea rite?i'm not the moz gorgeous woman on earth ok..relax pls..n i will neva dance wth any other guy than him of coz!!i'm juz goign coz its a lady's nite..kamini's gogin Aus..Iswari's gogin...n i havent been to cheekys in a long time n i missed the atmosphere..i mean u can say i'm the fun partyign type, n i dunno y hari doesn liek teh crowd i mean wats the fun wthout the crowd rite?oh well ok i told him i might be gogin onli not confirm..
n finali the topic changed to him asking me to rethink abt the relationship..n stuff..pathetic rite?sigh go to india also still can say the saem things..oh god..n asked me if i m reali happy wth him..i mean i cant juz lie to him n say i m happy...well its not me expectign alot of thigns..its juz tat he's too "stressed" to think abt me already..n dun hav the tiem to enteretain me yes i can understand i told him..but i dunno if he got my msg..i told him i'll think abt it n solve it when he gets to sg..he wont be callign fer the next two days coz he has outfield..n he wasted liek 1500rupees juz to tok to me..n bought another card when i asked t=him to go sleep...it was already 2am!n i had to wake up the next moring!so i can onli see wher fate leads me....

THE UK Fair

well it was great!!anyway we were supposed to give a farewell party for kamini..coz she's leavign to australia..buganes gave her tis card wher we printed her teh picture we took on the Valentine dinner n dance day..it was cewl..after waitign for so long finali they arrived..n we went to the fair..ohmygod it was so fun to see all the rides..it seemed liek so much of fun n we all cldnt wait to get inside..after gogin in n lookign at the rides..we came across tis Dj flyign seat ride n had a cute ang moh guy in teh booth lol..Kamini was sayign he was soo cute n was foolign ard lolzzz..well i n is wanted to go on the ride but the others didnt wan to..all were too scared!!argha it was fustrating coz they all cldnt make up their minds n hell..it was so EX per ride..5 bucks n above!so in the end we ended up playing oen ride onli n since we were ther so late..it was already closing...finali we all decided to go on the 360 degree spinning chair ride..it was sooooo damn scary...but fun after it was over lol..man i felt liek i was goign to be thrown out of the chair..n moz of the time i was closign my eyes..lolz..iswari was screamign liek crasi..n she too felt like fallign out..we all had fun n after tat buganes played a game n tried to win the soft toy but didnt get it..n we finali left after tat..Kamini asked to go to Cheeky's today but well i'm kinda tired n i hav sch tom too..well let me see abt it..if i'm in the mood to dance i might juz go n party..hey i'm a party animal..onli at night lolzz

hari's going Delhi

i cant belive tat he fought wth me the day b4 he left..i mean yea he hang out wth me to cheeky n stuff but i cant belive hs's goign to chinablack wth his frens n didnt wan to brign me along coz he asid i'll be one extra....i was reali hurt after all he was leavign tom n cant belive tat he wanted to be wth his frends..so i told him to go ahead..n told him i'll b neva happy wth him gogin clubbign wth his not becoz i wan to control him but i juz simply dun liek teh idea..its juz the same as him ont trusting the crowd of pple i wld go clubbign wth..same concept but y does he always think tat i wan to control him?!! then the argument got heated up n he started toking crap abt dyign n stuff tats when i cld feel the blood gushign thrugh my head ..n yea i did it..i slammed down the phone
i was reali pissed!i mean tats not even the topic..i relai cldnt control it i juz simply lost it n i wasnt even ashamed..so the next thing i did was to switch off my hp...n my home phone started ringing...woa he was sooo brave...but i juz told him off..i wasnt in the mood to entertain him or listen to him explain n stuff..i didnt on my phoen till the next day..but i knew i had to be ther fer him so i called him ard 11pm..i was still mad at him...i noe he wld be thinknig tat i'm such a drama mama but wateva ...not bothered..i went to his house n he didn even look at me in the face...juz went to his room to get ready n stuff..i tried to tok to him coz i didnt wan him to leave singapore feelign more shitty then he already is...i kinda felt bad coz things were not goign well fer him..but its reali not my fault..wat i reali hated moz is he asked me weather iswari n Viz were following n when i told him no...he didnt wan to go wth me anymore..he wanted to hang out wth his frens..yea ok i'm possesive freak or wateva but he did send me the msg tat he rather go wth his frens then me...tat was y i was sorta hurt...
then when he checked in..i felt the same thing i felt when he was leavign fer taiwan..but tis time i didnt cry..n i was pleases wth myself..at least i cld control it ...i didnt wan to make a fool of myself..but i was damn sad..i saw his mom...n from her face i cld tell tat she was feelign teh saem way..n sorry fer teh son..yes she loves him alot..n will definetly miss him...she's gr8 he was lucky to hav her..in the car he rang her up to tell tat he was goign to take off..then his brother-in-law said tat after he put down..my phone is gign to ring..he onli called after a whiel to say he was takign off n fer me to take care n tat he was sorri...n yes tat was the last i heard his voice in sg

i'm not neccessarily jealous sort..although the ones close to me might find so...maybe yea i'm a jealous freak..but i cant help it..n i dunno y its juz the veri natural me..i had a jealous streak from young ...bad huh..n now its getting worse then b4..gr8..moz of the jealousy goes to hari..of coz..anythign to do wth him n gals..i cant stand it..even if its actress or wateva..by rite i shld be getting angry wth teh gal but instead i'll get mad at him..for sum reason coz he too enjoys seeign me tat way..its reali funnyfer him but not fer me..a few misunderstanding has risen out of tat..coz he tot i was gettign werked up fer nuthign at it.. all..wch is true in a way..but i reali cant help it n its reali drivign me crazi..mayb i'm juz crasy..sumtimes i freak myself out..lolzz

parents find out

wat i always wanted to happen juz happened...my parents found out abt hari n me...coz of the picture in my wallet..i was shocked to death when my dad asked whu's the guy..is he the one i wanted to marry n stuff..i was liek so totali! flabberghasted!wat the hell..i wanted to tell him but i dunno ..n dun wan him to think tat i aws so excited abt the issue n blab la..n i wasnt so sure if he was being serious or sacastic..he said that this kinda thigns i muz tok to him..becoz he didnt want pple to see n say that thay saw his daughter wth sum gal..i was reali lost fer werds coz i was still not recovering from the shock..so i kept on irionign all the clothes in my dads cupborad like crasi..'
my mom was in teh room later when she broughtr up the question again so u gonn amarry that guy la ..i was like neva say anythign..then she carried on askign abt the family bla bla bla..wat he's doign and evry minor details...i told her everythign coz i noe hari wld be irritated if i didnt now its all up to them they wldnt let me out n stuff..thx to him..n now he wan me to go to the wedding tellign them..i relai dunno they didn treali show signs of approval they r jzu keepign quiet abt the whoel issue..n now i'm gogin crasi if they r reali ok or not..coz when i asked my mom to tok to him she was liek y shld i ask ur father to go n tok...

well hari's birthday was on fri...n he was tellign me that he was feelign sad n not himself...i felt pity fer him..since he cant even coem home..he muz be feelign worse then i did..he's juz homesick as usual..even if he's home thers nuthgin much to do anyway then to watch tv eat n sleep..mayeb online big deal..he'll soon get tired of it we were tokgin on wat he's going to when he's out of ns..i told him to decide now itself coz time is goign veri fast..he said he wanted to be teacher..well i told him its a veri stressful job n since he cant reali take stress he shldnt go fer it..he sai dhe can cope wth tat kind of stresss n bla bla bla..then i was liek fine do wat u wan juz dun regret..first he ha to do his degree n werk part time or sumthign i wonder wat he goign to do..he didnt wan police coz he said its harder to quit..
the cake cuttign was sorta fun..his sister bought him a cake from swensens..it was a vanilla cream covered ice cream cake wth chocolate icing..wth strawberry chocolate n vannila ice cream blended together wth cake on teh insides..yuummy huh..i enjoyed it!n ther was icing all ard it..wch was so cewl the sister took the dry ice n poped it into the water ther were many smoke coming ou tof it it was kinda cewl..
after that when we all sang the song i cld see tat he felt very happy coz i felt the same way..
i ws happy fer him he got a 100 vocher from metro to shop at that pig!sigh..
he asked me to follow him to metro tis sat..to shop..

hari biirthday

well nuthigns improved much from the last time i told u abt wat happened...yesterday at night i was tokign to him...he's always havign sum problem or another he told me that he played soccer wth he camp fellas n they purposely started a fight tellign tat he was playign roughly when he did not..i was sorry fer him that they were pickign on him mayb he's juz too soft n tats y all this is happenening but doesnt mean he shld change rite...
i'm so glad he's ending this oct..after that i doubt he'll change much coz he been liek this fer two yrs already..hopefuli i'm still hldign my hopes high..if he reali doesnt change much n i cant ake it then i dun hav much chocie..its stupid to carry on wth the relationship..every1 says that the relationship suffers alot during this period but i dunno y it shld affect ours..i mean i'm o cheatign on him or anythign..if i find sum1 to pass my tiem wth i cld have find one long time back..but i enjoy beign wth him..y doesnt he understand tat..i cld give him his space...provided i find another guy rite..
i hope i dunt have to do tat..n i dun even wan anytign to do wth guys if this is how every relationship is goign to be..maybe i shld change over n be bisexual i'll noe how to keep a gal happy..but will they be attracted to me?lol jking!!!...
now i cant possibly move on..especiali tat he bought me to his house n stuff
sumtimes i get teh idea that he's already bored wth me..that i'm always tehr fer him to call ..last time he mised me becoz he cant contact me wheneva i wan i hink i m not gogin to keep a handphone anymore..reason boyfreind dutn call me often n doesnt even reply when i msg but other guys whom i dunt even noe r desperate to tok to me...n go out wth me..i feel ashamed but i feel liek gogin out n tokgin to them..coz i'm sooo lonely...ironic huh i have a bf whu is possibly the best eva but i cant be wth him or he dunt reali wan to be wth me all the time..then y is he still wth me?the onli reason is coz of certain duties...i think now he's taking me for granted...n he doesnt even comment on how i look anymore..its all a big misake i shldnt have done thigns i shdnt have...now i'm bearign the consequences...
the main line is........HE"S BORED WTH ME..although he denies..i juz can feel it..
i think i no more interest or appeal to him...then all this addds up to the saem thign again..we shld juz break up rite?
i dunno how i'm gogin to do that coz many pple noe abt us...i wish he wld think that i deserve som respect n give me sum...
sumtimes i think tat i so damn dumb to give in so many things to him juz becoz i loved him n clingign on to him wch has served to be wrong..i feel so stupid..i dunno wher i m goign to get an ans fer all this..until i do i'll be haunted by this..n cant concentrate on anything...

well..many things happened recently..i juz managed to sign up for maxonline 3000..n get compaq presario for free..still waiting to reach my house..my msn not werking yet so i'm not in contact wth pple yet..onli been on yahoo..friendster n hi5..other than tat things between me n hari r not geting any better..its still liek an on n off thing..but he's a sweet guy..wat he did on my birthday..it was moz enjoyable birthday i had in yrs..he called me over to his house n we cut cake..n his mom fried chicken n fries..after taht we went to southbridge temple wth his family n guess who i saw...vickys father!thk god he didnt see me..n i was so shocked to receiive the necklace n earing in a box..was a lovely set..hari gave me a samuel n keith blouse..was reali nice too..onli it was turtle neck..will be hot but i'll wear it still..if not he'l think that i dunt like it..trust em tats wat he'll think n if i tell him he'll juz tell me the same thing..later we went back to his house n his sis ordered canadian pizza..was damn nice..n they were watching a liverpool n man u match..manu u won of coz..though i dun reali support i muz agree tat teh goalkeeper was pretty gd..after that i went back home n the next day i asked my sis to eat the cake they finished it all up..n wanted sumore!!

sch has started!!

sch has started again and thats one of the reasons i'm back here..most of the time i'm at the lab..n the lessons r pretty boring..n guess wat today fer teh first tiem i got caught for my hair..sigh..n they were making a big commotion abt it..how lame can they get rite?..i eman its not even blonde onli a bit brownish here n there..they they told us to go back immediately n get it dyed me n my fren wati..we were liek yea rite..if we left teh campus..we wont be comgin back till tomorow..n i dint reali wan to miss out on lessons also..so i asked if i cld pin up..after several tokgin here n ther..i finali was allowed into the class after i satisfied my teacehr by tellign tat my fren(hari)has a box of dye..thk god she let me go fer teh class i have no intention of dying my hair still but i guess no more lookign gd in sch..coz i might have to wear gel..n pin up my fringe..sigh..n later thers ports n wellness gr8..i told hari abt it n he said..my hair is too brown... :(..gr8 i dunno y i'''m havign dyed hair inthe first place