life is reali not wat we chose to lead...it always wants to be the leader...so i learnt tat neva to let myself run life...the way i wanted...so many unexpected turn of events..has changed me..moulded me...into a new me...da child in me has disapeared...i tot i'll neva be able to see the light again...but now i might too...in tis cruel world...u're all alone..no dependence...will onli lead to disapointments...oh wat a lesson u've tot me god...u onli wan ur children to lov u...materialistic luv n bonds neva last...i'm forced to lead life tis way...but y muz i learn it such a hard way?da word happiness doesn mean anythign to me....its juz an empty werd reali...i still hav my frens...but will i eva hav the luv i crave...constant attention...show me a way out...betrayal has strung me out so many times...wat i reali belive is not wat it is...under every cover thers a selfishness tat i cant stand...nuthing is selfless is ther...wat a world to live in...its full of misery...but then life as to go on....i've learned wat i can frm tis...i'm not happy n neva will...in tis world of pretentence i'll act as though...till then its reali a big ?

Reminisez

The sight of u never failed to
make my heart skip a beat
we were da bez couple totali in lov
i wasnt scared of losing u eva
but look wat became of us now
but alas i was proved otherwise
shockness n grieve overwhelm my mind
the pain of you not here
has got me in dismay
the world which I loved
has gone gone away...
i'll miss the nights which u held me tight
the times where you did nothing
and made me smile
I wish I could turn back time
n erase the wrong and make it right
you were the one I could see myself with
now you say you don't feel the way you used to
guess you just expect me to except my defeat and lose
Well I don't even know what i'm suppose to do
why would you want me to choose..
i'm so confused
the situation is impossible..
I can't tell my heart to stop loving you
it's just not possible
it's non-stop it keeps yearning
For the one it needs...
The one it can't seem to leave