life is reali not wat we chose to lead...it always wants to be the leader...so i learnt tat neva to let myself run life...the way i wanted...so many unexpected turn of events..has changed me..moulded me...into a new me...da child in me has disapeared...i tot i'll neva be able to see the light again...but now i might too...in tis cruel world...u're all alone..no dependence...will onli lead to disapointments...oh wat a lesson u've tot me god...u onli wan ur children to lov u...materialistic luv n bonds neva last...i'm forced to lead life tis way...but y muz i learn it such a hard way?da word happiness doesn mean anythign to me....its juz an empty werd reali...i still hav my frens...but will i eva hav the luv i crave...constant attention...show me a way out...betrayal has strung me out so many times...wat i reali belive is not wat it is...under every cover thers a selfishness tat i cant stand...nuthing is selfless is ther...wat a world to live in...its full of misery...but then life as to go on....i've learned wat i can frm tis...i'm not happy n neva will...in tis world of pretentence i'll act as though...till then its reali a big ?