lots of things hapened...
i joined ICA in april
wen fer trainng 6 weeks..
wonderful batchmates..
had wonderful time training..
was happy to put things behind n start afresh..
so y m i writing again?

yes...i dun write unless its my
last resort..

fai ekin marie n carol n me
were so close..
carol had to go tuas..
so tht leaves 4 of us behind..
ekin n i was booster team..
and marie n fai was in team Bravo
tht means i dun get to see them at all

months passed..it was now jul
live goes on..was busy wth werk..
it was pretty routine..
i ws so carefree no guys..
so happy n single..
ther was tis guy he told me
he was attracted to me..
n the he wanted to ask me out..
n ther was another guy
shaun..met him at
denisha party..
he wanted to get to noe me as well..

at tht timei was jzu goin oout wh gobi
juz on casual dates..
maybe i was deprived of romannce
maybe it was juz too boring..
i had to go out wth tht shaun..
i can reali connect but
he was younger onli 19

back to da guy at werk he's pakistani..
n he's got a bike..
not juz any bike..
but a big bike..
da sisqo even regonises his bike at
red channel n let u pass by wthout checking
n he picks me up to n fro werk..
everyone sarted toking..
coz at first it was jeremy n ekin
n now me n him..

well ..everything was ok
i even grew to be
so attached to him coz
i see him moz da time
n den da other day
he jzu told me a earthsattering news
tht his ex wans him bck
da ex dat threw an helmet on him
n once engaged to him b4..
he said he go feeligns fer her..
i jzu felt the blood run frm my head
n he was stil carrying on toking
but nothign was gogin in m head
afta tht he stil can say i'm stil confused..
i stil lik u too

lik wowness

how bitter can a situation get?
more...

afta tht he said he cant drop me coz he
goign hospital to see his coz whu accident..
i juz said i'm goign back myself..

afta tht?
no msg
no call
sighzzz

las i heard frm jeremy he's depressed
n tht he's busy wth family..
i reali cant forget him at werk.
i reali miss him..
reali do..
he told me he loved me
how cld he do tis to m..
i can even imagine us not beig together..
it be reali awkward..

jeremy said da ex gf thin is jz a tign to spark me off
but then i think tads juz to make me feel beter
he said he'll tok i duno wad been going on
rite now i'm juz a lost cause...
tom i'l see him..
i'm keeping my fingers crossed.
but i'm bracing myself up
4 da worst..wish me luck k

well for iswari..
m so jealous..
she got da perfect guy
juz outof nowher..
sighzz...
its juz not fair..
but m happy fer her though..
reali m..
juz wish i cld get tht kinda guy as well
but guess nt lucky enuff
juz be happy enuff wth wad u get..
he's jzu too nice..
n he reminds me of hari
how he used to be..
sighzzzzzzzz

hey..
long time since i write..
but now the chapter of joe
seem to b fading away..
finally..
it was gd while it lasted..
neva tot i wld be saying tht..
bt ya..
i knew it wld nt last anyway..
anyway veri disapointed wth
da way he's acting..
but came to a point wher i reali
cant care..
but i cant sleep
i think egan give gd support...
mayb shld juz get
together wth him..
n see how it goes..
at least he don seem to
lik me fer anything else..
joe will neva be anyoen i
can share my probs wth..
he can oli be a gd fren n
nothing more..
i guess he jzu cant give
me wat i want
n i cant giv him wat he wans
either.......
guess he sees me as
a fling afta all..

jo is driving me crasi...

he is reali..

drivinggggggg meeeee nutsssssss

he's not tellign me anything...

he doesnt call me...

iswari says he liks me

but thers sumthgn holding him back...

birthday.
wen to bumbles
wth noi n is
afta tht david brought
us 2 gothams
partied ther...
met tis guy egan..
i was freaking high..
danced wth him..
lik reali din care..
was so close to him..
n so was he..
we made out n stuff..
i think he fell in love
but i juz enojyed the whole thing
plus wen jo called i wanted
to go see him..real bad
n i went..
wen i wen ther
things were gr8
so memorable..
but he nvr said he missed me
n so did i...
n i din wan to fake it
i lik keeping things real..
n now..im tied down
between 2 guys..
keep thinking abt jo
but egan seems reali into me..
i duno y..
he says he mis me..
n he actuali called..
n he rem things i tell him..
lets see hw things gonna b lik...