lots of things hapened...
i joined ICA in april
wen fer trainng 6 weeks..
wonderful batchmates..
had wonderful time training..
was happy to put things behind n start afresh..
so y m i writing again?

yes...i dun write unless its my
last resort..

fai ekin marie n carol n me
were so close..
carol had to go tuas..
so tht leaves 4 of us behind..
ekin n i was booster team..
and marie n fai was in team Bravo
tht means i dun get to see them at all

months passed..it was now jul
live goes on..was busy wth werk..
it was pretty routine..
i ws so carefree no guys..
so happy n single..
ther was tis guy he told me
he was attracted to me..
n the he wanted to ask me out..
n ther was another guy
shaun..met him at
denisha party..
he wanted to get to noe me as well..

at tht timei was jzu goin oout wh gobi
juz on casual dates..
maybe i was deprived of romannce
maybe it was juz too boring..
i had to go out wth tht shaun..
i can reali connect but
he was younger onli 19

back to da guy at werk he's pakistani..
n he's got a bike..
not juz any bike..
but a big bike..
da sisqo even regonises his bike at
red channel n let u pass by wthout checking
n he picks me up to n fro werk..
everyone sarted toking..
coz at first it was jeremy n ekin
n now me n him..

well ..everything was ok
i even grew to be
so attached to him coz
i see him moz da time
n den da other day
he jzu told me a earthsattering news
tht his ex wans him bck
da ex dat threw an helmet on him
n once engaged to him b4..
he said he go feeligns fer her..
i jzu felt the blood run frm my head
n he was stil carrying on toking
but nothign was gogin in m head
afta tht he stil can say i'm stil confused..
i stil lik u too

lik wowness

how bitter can a situation get?
more...

afta tht he said he cant drop me coz he
goign hospital to see his coz whu accident..
i juz said i'm goign back myself..

afta tht?
no msg
no call
sighzzz

las i heard frm jeremy he's depressed
n tht he's busy wth family..
i reali cant forget him at werk.
i reali miss him..
reali do..
he told me he loved me
how cld he do tis to m..
i can even imagine us not beig together..
it be reali awkward..

jeremy said da ex gf thin is jz a tign to spark me off
but then i think tads juz to make me feel beter
he said he'll tok i duno wad been going on
rite now i'm juz a lost cause...
tom i'l see him..
i'm keeping my fingers crossed.
but i'm bracing myself up
4 da worst..wish me luck k